It's So odd when this happens but it's been happening more and more... I'll be wide awake maybe bored or something but like I sit or lay down on a bed... and I just knock out...  It just happened like 30 mins ago... I just woke up with the feeling of "wtf happened?" or "why am I sleeping?"

 For those who don't know, I'm not a big fan of sleeping but I've been taking a lot more naps lately too:

some I agree too and some have been like I "knock out" - none consensual  ...

it freaks me out that I can so easily fall asleep when I was just wide awake... 

I think when I wake up, I wake up a lil scared, my heart is racing too... 

I have fallen asleep at times in the car not driving (well actually there too but I try and avoid this) but when stopped and people go into the store or go visit people... (lock the door and put most of the window up... hate being disturb)

I have randomly been in a nap and fallen asleep there too... (although, a lil scared to fall asleep in such an open space)

 

(Random like this with more clothes and no pet) - The ferret makes me want to see Along Came Polly- Random!!! 

At nights, I do fall asleep with my comp a lot... more recently than not... but this last week I've been going to sleep early... so I'm getting more sleep. But, it's not something that's been happening for just days... 

I had to hang up the phone in the middle of the day with a friend because I fell asleep in the middle of our conversation, and she's not boring... but she never found out... 

 

*sigh* enough of this weirdness

Do you ever fall asleep randomly? Ever take naps or do you mainly sleep at night?? 

(Sorry, I'm still a lil dazed and confused!)

Just thought I would clarify in fine print: I am not crazy, a lil weird sometimes, random, odd sometimes a lil paranoid but most of the time it happens to be all in fun...But I truly do found this a lil weird and odd for my own taste... maybe it's not for you or maybe it is... I usually write about something to find out if someone else has had the same thing happen or if they can relate... idk.... whatev ...

Geez.... I was just trying to think of how many open accounts I have online... sometimes too many to keep up

1. Obviously Xanga... haha

2. Facebook 

3. twitter although I made private just recently just for experimentation 

4. myspace (we all know it's dead) I haven't logged on to mind in ages... I actually just went to the Url... I didn''t delete it because it look me such a long time to get it to how I wanted it ... I just looked at my page... there is a lot of crap that I never put there... very sad!!!! I hate you myspace... 

5. Myheritage which is where I've worked on my family tree... 

I had a friendster and high5 (deleted those) 

6. photobucket

7. Blogger

8. Tumblr which I created right now... I sold to the temptation of people having it... I guess I'm taking my time to learn this one too... 

oh yea ... I also have a 

9.Livejournal which I hardly use... I started using blogger instead of this one... thought it was easier...  

10. youtube

11. Ebay --- paypal different? it's been forever! 

12. 

I think I must have something with google too... I don't know... I mean I had completely forgotten about youtube...I feel like I must be forgetting something else...

not to mention my messengers:

Yahoo

Aim/Facebook chat (I linked them)

MSN

Skype 

Blackberry messenger

(and you wanna know the sad part of all of this... I only need my computer to use Xanga... everything else I can manage on my blackberry ) 

even like like 7 email accounts... 

 

Yea, I know... that's way too much and I think I'm forgetting more... maybe,.. not sure!!

I was naked....

She was in me...

I didn't know her name ...

she felt me up.... 

 

 

 

 

It was over in like 10 mins... 

 

I have a bruise to show for it 

 

 

 

 

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So yesterday I believe I was asking for a lil help with my theme. I wanted to fix it because there was a typo in it. We know that in a huge community like xanga there is bound to be some one who knows how to this. But, I'm also not well known so I was crossing my fingers that amongst anybody who did happen to read it, someone would be able to help. And surely, someone came to my rescue. Not that I like things perfect but I at least enjoy having the full words, you know...

I was to Thank Bede (BFB1131) for taking time off of his own schedule and help me out with my little theme issue. Thank you so much. the 3 images were perfect, you did a great job. I'm very thankful for it! So thanks to him my theme is fixed... YAY!!!! It looks the same to anybody to didn't notice or see it but the change is done!!!

Thank you, again!!!

Ok, So I recently changed my theme on my xanga page... duh!!! You can see it, you're on it... Now, I love it but I have a big issue with the lil poem or writing on the on the top left... Does anybody know how I can get into the actually theme or code or what ever it is I need to do to change it a bit... or does anybody know how to do it? I know there has to be some computer people out there or hackers or something... I really want to change it a lil... I mean I like it but those small mistakes... just bite out at me... 

 

Any help please!!!! 

Currently

I'm just feeling indifferent with life... I'm like happy and unhappy at the same time. I don't know how to describe... i guess the only explanation is that they cancel each other and I feel indifferent. 

I have so much on my mind... I like stare out to empty space... I just think and get nowhere... I want to write but there is nothing to say... I want to talk but I don't know how to start a convo... I just tune everything out with music... I'm just sleeping more and more on daily basis... I'm annoyed and irritable... well right now it doesn't count that I got sun burnt... 

There are just moments when i just wanna sleep and not wake up... sometimes I feel that my dreams even though I don't remember them would just make things easier... you know like in "Inception" when you see all those people sleeping because the only way they feel alive or ok is sleeping and alive in the dream world? Well if you don't it'sa very brief moment in the movie... right now I wish I would just be down... *shrug*

haha ... so I needed something to laugh to! =D

Currently

I'm just feeling indifferent with life... I'm like happy and unhappy at the same time. I don't know how to describe... i guess the only explanation is that they cancel each other and I feel indifferent. 

I have so much on my mind... I like stare out to empty space... I just think and get nowhere... I want to write but there is nothing to say... I want to talk but I don't know how to start a convo... I just tune everything out with music... I'm just sleeping more and more on daily basis... I'm annoyed and irritable... well right now it doesn't count that I got sun burnt... 

There are just moments when i just wanna sleep and not wake up... sometimes I feel that my dreams even though I don't remember them would just make things easier... you know like in "Inception" when you see all those people sleeping because the only way they feel alive or ok is sleeping and alive in the dream world? Well if you don't it'sa very brief moment in the movie... right now I wish I would just be down... *shrug*

I get two pressure points on the back of my head, they're pretty parallel to each other... like midway of my skull (speaking in between from forehead to my neck in the middle) one pressure is on the right side and the other is on the left. They're starting to happen more often. It's not like everyday often but in the last 2 months or so I've had them like 3 times at least. The only way I get relief is to apply a lot pressure simultaneously so I press with my both hands until it minimizes... it takes a very small while. Does anybody else get that or something similar? Or do you know someone who has that happen to them? Or anything would help....

But, I know some of you will tell me to get that checked out and I really appreciate that but I wish it were that easy. I'm trying to see if anybody has had it happen to them, then relate and see if it's something imperative. I truly wish I can go sometimes but the fact is that I can't afford it... so i'm keeping it simple. It doesn't worry me... if I worried about everything that happens within, I think I would be more miserable taking so many meds at this point. I don't even take pain relievers for that matter...  *shrug* 

I don't know causes it, it  can be stress... but it's happened in moments of excitement, happiness, sadness too... so I don't know...

Hope someone out there can help me...

 

So I've come to this conclusion all my my lonesome...  UNDATEABLE!

or

Can it be that I don't meet the right people in real...

The only people I ever would have really wanted to meet were nerds in my classes...  You know the "know it alls" but they lacked personality and had the need to do everything but enjoy some company. Not only that I guess I must have missed a lot of opportunities I was in a serious relationship for a while of my college career adventure and graduated with a baby... After that who would want a girl like me? 

Hey guys, I do have a mind of my own... I know sad... yea, you can't tell me what you want and not expect me to ask for something in return... fyi I'm not going to ask for a "ring", "a car" "a house" or "kids" those are all decisions... (will you ever get near to any of them, not sure) But I will say, with a job I know I can have each of those my self oh and for kids... I have one... (kids= the most serious talk in the world with me... SERIOUS)

I don't have that of a distasteful personality... it can be a lil different but who's isn't? 

I to enjoy talking and flirting sometimes but don't get me wrong I don't cheat or ever will. Don't expect anything from it. 

The definition of "love" by gentlemen's actions has made my thoughts of love "fickle" 

I don't dance... well I haven't  done so since freshmen year or maybe beginning of sophomore year in college...max when I was 19... that's like 7 years... 

I do have  an ocassional drink ... My thought process while inibriated still the same but a lil more brave but not very brave... I still wont sing in front of people lilke kareoke even though I've wanted to try... 

I'm attached to my phone... but if I can manage to ignore my phone for hours so can you ... 

Part of what i enjoy is talking... doesn't even cost anything... I like to save people money... 

(religion has been taken out-for the time being it use to hold an importance- currently not sure about organize religion-) at the time getting to know the person for who they and stand for are more important than their beliefs... Religion right now seems relative... 

I love staring at the stars... one day i'm going to by a telescope...

I enjoy classical music... but I don't make you listen to it but I also enjoy Symphony Orchestras, Operas, Ballet -- Hello music major.... and I enjoy the Arts... 

I enjoy rock (My fav station KROQ) but if you're not in LA you don't hear it but even I don't get to since I live a lil far from it. I literally like all types of music, rock, punk, emo, all the variations of all of those combined and I'm open to new bands, I like rap, hip hop, R&B, some mainstream... But I hardly listen to radio and I certainly don't want TV (seriously), there are even a few countries songs I like. I'm pretty well rounded... 

I would love to visit museums.. last time I was in one I was probably 7 yrs old

Kids --- I'm a single mother of one... so if you can't accept that oh well... as for kids with someone else... I'm almost certain I don't want any. (well unless you have a good reason- it's an discuss-able topic. You just might be an exception as mentioned above this is a SERIOUS topic)

Cuddling- never had it so I'm not sure if I like it or not but it would be interesting. 

I've always slept pretty much alone or slept in a really small bed with my son so I tend to stay in an edge of the bed no matter what usually... 

i do like make-up... I've minimized in the years... 

Oh and I hate cleaning but I hate a dirty place... realize that if I clean it gets dirtier first then somewhat clean... to almost spotless... 

Dishes sometimes give me comfort... when I do chores I listen to music and tune everything out 

I dislike talking on the phone but when I'm talking to someone I enjoy it... (nobody ever calls me... )

I like doing  laundry... nothing like having clean clothes... hate putting them away though... 

I enjoy cooking but don't make me angry because then I wont want to make anything 

I am not hot temptered at all but do tend to have dominant type of character which sometimes makes me clash with people... I'm actually quite patient but tick me off and the gloves are off. (maybe the full Mexican in me) But, if you can handle me, I'm the most passive as girls come as well... you can't handle a girl with a stronger character.

You are either submissive (which I use to be, timid, controllable but not completely anymore) or have the power to control a household which I know I can... I tend not to take leadership positions but when I have them... I make best of the power I know how to use it well to the benefit of everybody. 

I on a rare ocassion can be very opinionated and that's more and more when you know what I stand for. 

I don't expect special treatment as long as you treat me with respect.

I do enjoy chivalry but not having it isn't a deal breaker... I can make it on my own... having a hard time starting now... but once i'm there ... I know how to handle. 

i was over protected as a child and sometimes my thoughts and the way I make up my mind can't be innocent (child like, naive, ignorant) 

I've been single most of my life with exception of 3 years... so I'm not susceptible (can be a lil gullible but you can figure that out)

I compromise my experiences... I accept people for who they are completely (good and bad and if I don't I wont consider you from the get go) but my free acceptance leaves me hanging... I feel as though they never accepted me back the same way... (I guess acceptance isn't reciprocated)

As time passes my wall of attachment has grown higher and thicker. Don't think I don't let people talk to me because I do. Some who I let them talk to me have an advantage already but most don't know how to use it. I end up just stacking them up as just friends... And I can tell the difference in flirting too... 

I rather be alone than unhappy.

My heart basically tolerate a "3 strikes your out system" - well I haven't counted how many strikes each person gets but knowingly or unknowingly people are given chances... and this only applies to talking and maybe dating... relationship is different. If you can't make it while we talkor date why would I want a relationship with you.

I'm still friends with people I've talked to or dated... they give me advice on guys... heads up... Who knows men better than them they know different types of men and how the are 

I wont lie to you but you better not lie to me... When I find out....guess what? a thicker wall means harder work... and not worth it for you. (just being honest) 

at some point in the talking... I so some pursuing... just like it was done to me... but if you get comfortable with that... DONT... If I see no reciprocation (or intent from your side) I move on... simple... have had a few guys get too comfortable... doesn't work, sorry!

I analyze a lot ... and think a lot... so I listen to music to clear up my mind

Yea, so I'm undate-able.... 

Have you ever felt like you were undateable or just not compatible with anybody?