June 21, 2011
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Indifference
Currently
I'm just feeling indifferent with life... I'm like happy and unhappy at the same time. I don't know how to describe... i guess the only explanation is that they cancel each other and I feel indifferent.
I have so much on my mind... I like stare out to empty space... I just think and get nowhere... I want to write but there is nothing to say... I want to talk but I don't know how to start a convo... I just tune everything out with music... I'm just sleeping more and more on daily basis... I'm annoyed and irritable... well right now it doesn't count that I got sun burnt...
There are just moments when i just wanna sleep and not wake up... sometimes I feel that my dreams even though I don't remember them would just make things easier... you know like in "Inception" when you see all those people sleeping because the only way they feel alive or ok is sleeping and alive in the dream world? Well if you don't it'sa very brief moment in the movie... right now I wish I would just be down... *shrug*
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Ugh. Limbo.
Never fun, and hard to shake off the lethargy.
I'm sorry :/
i hope everything gets better soon
and the indifference turns to happy =]
i'm not good at advice, or even knowing if a girl actually wants an advice or just want to be heard..
so forgive me i'm not helping for speaking my mind out..
maybe you should set something up as a goal to go for.. something meaningful, to you, or your family, or future family, maybe? something that will keep you on the edge and feel alive everyday..
I know this feeling all too well, it's the number one pain in my ass on a daily basis.
The only solution i found was to find out what it is that's missing from your daily routine that will give you a sense of purpose. Or just try to accept that perhaps sometimes you just have to drift and wait for something to intervene.
I'm not sure what the answer is but if you find one please let me know
@opticalnoise - I know it is. I hope it goes away by today or something... thanks!!
@dude_this_world_sux - thanks! I hope so too. I'm sure it will I just need a lil pick me up and then it will boost me just above the indifference level.
@maniacsicko - Hey it's no problem. I never mind advice. Goals and plans I have. I just don't know how to launch them. When they all require me to have a job to at least feel like i'm fulfilling something and I've been unsuccessful. To make me feel alive I need to have money and be worth something... make sure I can provide and move out and the list goes on...
@BFB1131 - yea, I've been pretty indifferent for quite some time actually. I try not to let it get to me but sometimes it just hits me a lil. I mean I know what I have to do with make me feel like I have purpose. Hopefully soon is will get better. I've accepted it for years but I'm hoping it will change soon and hopefully i will take a small break from family soon which will aide my need to escape.
But, if I find something that universally helps everybody remove indifference... I will surely let you know =D
Feel bad for you, luvvie. A change of scene would be a good thing, methinks. Even just going off for your fave flave of ice cream might be in order. This sounds more of a long=term issue, though, so yeah-goals are the solution. Start small, and build upwards. You will amaze!
I agree with RighteousBruin, Yo do have the ability to amaze. It shows through in all the uplifting and humorous ways you inspire others. Keep your chin up huni xxx
@RighteousBruin - thank you hun... I think I will have a small change of scenery if all goes thorough in a couple of weeks. It will be a small trip *crossing fingers* by myself. And I hope that after that it can be the beginning of the end (as in a new start) when I come back. My issue has been a long term, which started a while back but I think that even though I still feel a little indifference I'm starting to feel better. My thoughts and the way I am are slowly changing. I guess I feel as though I'm going through a small transition. Sadly, a small trip for ice cream wont do it... I need a big change and something completely out for it to have an impact. But, I will start building up. thank you for the uplifting message.
@complicatedh - Aww, thank hun!!! You're so sweet! I hope it's true! I will keep myself up. thank you sweetie! All you wonderful people just make me feel so good!
@pinktiger335 - It's my pleasure to build up a friend. Your plan sounds wonderful, and I look forward to hearing about it.!
I know the feeling. It kinda sucks, but at least I guess it's better than being sad/down or whatever. Hope you get happier soon! *HUGS*
You have no idea how much I can relate to this!
I hope that the indifference wears off & that you feel better soon!
<3
* big huggles *
xo'
A fairly high percentage of life is boring. That is why I like to care out my special moments--like I am at Starbucks typing this to you. That is fun for me. I did today's post here. I like going shopping for my wife. It gets me out of the house and I meet lots of nice people. I like Borders and love to browse there. I love our trips to Hawaii when we can afford it. I love reunions with my wife since she travels a lot.
But, lots of life is boring.
frank
I've been feeling really indifferent lately as well. my only piece of advice is to get involved with something whether it be friends, work, school, volunteering, family, anything. I hope you feel better soon. <3
@RighteousBruin - Thank you! I'll see if it's worth a post ... lol
@mrsclark11 - thanks darling! yea, it's true feeling sad is worse because then I would be crying but instead I don't care right now. I'm feeling a lil happy writing something but then it hits me and I wanna sleep. c'est la vie.
@preskinny - Thank you darling!! I hope so for you too!! *hugs*
@ANVRSADDAY - You know I use to go to starbucks and do a few hours like once a week or every other week. It was my personal time to do whatever I wanted and I enjoyed a passion iced tea, my fav. Hmm... maybe I should do it again... it's been a long while since I get out like that from home. thanks for the advice.
@bittersweetreflections - well there is no real involvement where I live.. It's far away from everything so that sucks which is also a part of why I feel so indifferent. But, I'm hoping it will be ok soon. I just need a small break which I pray it comes soon. Thanks darling for the advice...I hope you feel better too!!!
Indifference is a strange place to be. I've been feeling indifferent a lot these days myself.
Hope your feeling better today luv xx
I had this for a while and a change in routine did it. I was like a zombie following a daily routine. Hope you feel better soon
Hmmm, I wanna sleep and never ever wake up. That would be very fun.
@C_L_O_G - It is a strange feeling... but I think I just took a small step back... I need to clear my mind.
@complicatedh - It was a better day but sigh now I'm a lil sad... I was hoping something was going to happen and it can't.
@Margo73 - I was hoping for a small change for a week was going to do it but that was just cancelled... so I feel worse now.
@Rainboxx - Me too... and right now it feel about perfect. :'(
=hugs=
@Rainboxx - thank you darling... right now that's all I need a hug so I can just let out everything *hugs back*
Man i hate that, hoping to change what cant be, sux !!! Here if u need me
@complicatedh - Me too darling... the only way for me to feel better is find a way to raise money and leave out of state for a few days...
Money ha...i know the feeling. Sell something materialistic to finance ???
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