June 7, 2011

  • Euthanasia- Can it be a choice or Is it wrong?

    Dr. Jack Kevorkian,m who recently passed away on June 3rd, 2011 (May be rest in peace) was a "...Michigan pathologist who put assisted suicide on the world's medical ethics stage.." He admitted to assisting  to over 130 suicides. He actually even served jail time for second degree murder charges. He was tried and convicted for "Voluntary Euthanasia" for the death of a man names Thomas Youk (not his only trial but one that gave him 10-25 yrs). Youk was in the final stages of "Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis" so he contacted Dr. Kevorkian and they ended his life. Youk was obviously terminally ill and he chose to end his life this way.

    So, I ask, What if a person is terminally ill like Youk and frankly can no longer stand the pain he bare on daily basis. They are to the point in which they feel death would honesty be the best choice but sure you may argue since they're dying anyways why not let the illness take it's course? But, in a different perspective: Just as people choose to put their beloved pets (not saying people are animals or disposable and pet euthanasia is another interesting topic) "to sleep" to prevent them from more pain and agony why can't a person with excruciating pain be allowed the same right?

    Besides at this point people would only be taking medication to ease the pain (if they're further into the disease) or medication to try and control different issues appearing with said illness. We know the chemicals in medication can have harsh reactions typically helping with one or 2 symptoms plus and causing different symptoms or even weaknesses in other organs, typically kidneys and liver but not limited to. And once the illness has taken a course where the doctors have nothing left to do, there are pain medications (or there is where Legalization would actually come in handy for a person who just has nothing left "Medical Marijuana" -another topic but can be applied) 

    Suicide has always been deemed a negative -is it really that bad or is it just a fear people obtain for the people who opt out and loosing their opportunity of making it to "heaven"? The dealing with death is always an issue with morality especially those who seem to have the power to control or have a direct impact like let's say Abortion (Pro-life, Pro-choice) and Death Penalty which the controversy when the term "murder" comes into play. But it is really? And, the main reason for everybody to judge is because everybody has a point of view especially those viewing from the outside in, the bystanders (and we know how opinionated we all are).

    Of course, there is also the issue with family that is/will be affected. As a family member, it would be painful to watch someone close (Mom, Dad, sister, brother, aunt, uncle, cousin, etc) pass away but is the funeral more painful of their loss? Can it be more painful as a family member to see them suffer more and more on daily basis? Keep in mind the fact that you will never know the how it feels like being in their shoes or feel the pain that intensifies on daily basis. But, who is really being selfish: The person who wants to end their pain or the people who do not understand the illness at hand and prefer the family member to live with it until the end? 

    Should family have a right to intervene (of course we're talking about adult: not kids;they can be a different subject added, and so can the mentally challenge) or can it be like the Pro-choice argument of "my body, my choice" I'll do with it as I please?

    And, if we decide to cop-out early, should the Physician have to pay for "a crime" like Dr.Kevorkian, who only completed the wishes of his patients OR  should he be free of accountability especially if the patient signed the waivers to allow him to terminate his life? (Should these form documents be legally binding?)

     

June 5, 2011

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June 3, 2011

  • Music is my peace in Life!

    There  are posts that come to my mind here and there (and the last one was out of the blue I need it out- I snapped in my mind)- whatever!! whatevah

    after yesterday I felt a lil stressed bummed which is when I seek refuge in music …music is my life as I am sure it’s a part of many.

     

    But, just as you love to listen to the beat, or enjoy and occasional lyric … I not only listen to the lyric but listen to the singer or better yet the language the music is conveying. heart The language and the mood in music are meant to be subtle and unnoticeable but to me it makes it a part of my life. It drives me. I’ve never been able to feel love, fear, pain, heartache, happiness, sadness, peace as I do when I listen to music which also means the the vessel (either the singer or instrumentalist had to do their job, correctly).

     

    I seek out musical connections because it’s a way to my heart.

    (I know, I just said, not easily done as it was said)  I’ve learned to be critical yet loving and understanding to all musicians and music lovers. No matter how much you practice there is always room for improvement, which goes with life as well.  It doesn’t matter where you came from, what you past consists of because in the end of the night you’re always striving to be you, the better part of you, which even if unnoticed, you practice on it daily. And you are unchangeable by any means. Don't seek to conform the unhappiness of another person. Be happy and don't conform your happiness to make someone else happy if it's not making you happy.There will always and I truly mean always be people trying to change who you are, what you stand for… But, no… you be happy with yourself and strive to better yourself in the necesities that you need.  It’s hard enough you judging your own self but allowing others the opportunity to take you out… 

    Lately, there is one song that for some reason I keep taking refuge in… it makes me feel good yet… it breaks me down to tears. 

    Give me headphones… and I’m gone for hours but you know what? That’s when I’m alive… 

    I judge myself pretty damn hard. I think, at times I have kept my self from happiness because of it. It took me years of searching (to find myself) which I did hand in hand with music, hence why I majored in music. 

    I've decided to tune out people when they talk bad about me... why? because you can't possibly tell me something I don't tell myself on a daily basis. (But, I can't tune out when they treat people like they mean nothing.-it's accumulative anger for me) No one can have more hate or make me feel less than how I felt as growing up as I did for myself as a teen. And I can literally tune people (it's a zone out... blank stares sure... They give my sister the chills... I don't know why but it's because when you  die a lil inside and start to revive yourself sometimes you still feel a lil half gone ... sometimes people don't understand) 

    I don't mean to sound so negative or pessimistic... but music has given me life... struggle I face myself, no one knows... you call people names but don't call them out until you really take a look at yourself. 

    ok enough!

    *sigh*

    oh yea, I'm not a skinny girl and sadly I've never been able to... I've done many things to try... but you know what? If you don't like it f*ck off... It's been my life struggle as much as people suffer, if I could cut it off I would, trust me...it's not the eating issue... stop generalizing people! sad you don't know about loathing people for what they can't completely change as I have loathed myself for not being able to ever have a perfect body ... angry

  • favorite memory

    sadly, it took me a small while of retracting, and thinking... I don't know why it didn't come to my face sooner... it was already face palming me to begin with... So many people, so many faces, so many events, so many places, cities, etc

    But, the person who has given me my favorite memory and one that I have never forgotten to this day... I don't know why it took me a sec to realize... Danny!!! My lil boy... Arturo Daniel Schmidt... the lil love who still makes me smile no matter what... Who asks why water is falling from eyes instead of "crying" the boy who calls it "cheese tortilla" instead of "quesadilla"... 

    My Precious baby boy, 

    Yes, you have witnessed  water falling my eyes... maybe a far too many times. I try and hide but you always seek me out... You are my lil ray of sunshine, no doubt. 

    Danny, even though parts are still a blur, I will never ever ever forget the day you were born. I am sure many mothers feel the same about their kids' births... Prior to your birth I can almost say I was having quite a few out body experiences (during labor)... That pain in itself was drugging me away. I don't know much about torture but I knew I was able to withstand pain man oh man was I wrong... mom (grandma) regrets not letting me take the epidural... seeing births of other people have finally made her realize that she should have let them medicate me, she still gets the chills thinking about the screams... But, baby you know what... the pain I had then, some of the back problems I still have now... will NEVER diminish the feeling I felt the moment I was holding you in my arms. I was so afraid to hold you, you felt so tiny... I was so out of it ... I felt like I was going to drop you. I felt inexperienced... I didn't want rest I just wanted everybody to see you...  You had become my lil pride. My lil furry lil boy... haha! My lil monkey... The funny thing was that no one was able to tell you ethnicity when you were born... haha! One of my favorite memories of you will always be your birth... I really wanted to meet the lil boy who had made me drink a whole bottle of tomato juice ( remember the Scene from "Look who's talking?" and she's drinking the apple juice well that's me with tomato juice), I also wanted to know who was the lil boy who has me carry a lil bottle of Tapatio sauce in my purse...  

    You are are  my favorite memory even to this day... 

    Thank you for all the wonderful memories and we still have many more to make

    Love you, 

    Reyna aka mommy (He calls me Reyna) 

     

     

     

     

     

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    Day 1 - Your Best Friend

    Day 2 — Your Crush
    Day 3 — Your parents
    Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
    Day 5 — Your dreams
    Day 6 — A stranger
    Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
    Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
    Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
    Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
    Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
    Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
    Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
    Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
    Day 15 — The person you miss the most
    Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
    Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
    Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
    Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
    Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
    Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
    Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
    Day 23 — The last person you kissed
    Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
    Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
    Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
    Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
    Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
    Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
    Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

     

June 2, 2011

  • shallow

    With so many people being superficial and shallow (not everybody)...it makes me not even want to meet people in person from here. I kind of wanted to but with people who demonstrate themselves as so I prefer my distant acquaintances than expecting the leering eye of judgement. Oh and just because you (who ever looks down on people) might be perfect or have never dealt with some stuff (which you have and I'm sure) doesn't' mean you have to keep shoving it down people throats. Fine, we get the point... go try and help somebody about it instead of judging. Thanks! 

    Yes, beauty lies in the eye of the beholder but please let people deal with the sh*t they have in their daily lives instead of having to concentrate on added sh*t by people who don't understand. I'm just saying... 

  • Where is the love? Co-exist

    I just woke up from a nap and the song I woke up to was this "Where is the love" by the Black Eyed Peas and I don't know if you have actually heard the lyrics or what the song talks about but it's about spreading love across the world. It's a very loaded song if you really feel what it's talking about. There is so much discrimination, hate, pain in this world and caused by us.

    Feel free to listen to listen... I provided the lyrics at the bottom but it's a great song ... "Where is the Love?"

    love-1-2

    What's wrong with the world mama?
    People living like aint got no mamas
    I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama
    Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma
    Overseas yeah we tryin to stop terrorism
    But we still got terrorists here livin
    In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz and the Crips and the KKK
    But if you only have love for your own race
    Then you only leave space to discriminate
    And to discriminate only generates hate
    And if you hatin you're bound to get irate
    Yeah madness is what you demonstrate
    And that's exactly how anger works and operates
    You gotta have love just to set it straight
    Take control of your mind and meditate
    Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

    People killing people dying
    Children hurtin you hear them crying
    Can you practice what you preach
    Would you turn the other cheek?
    Father Father Father help us
    Send some guidance from above
    Cause people got me got me questioning
    Where is the love?(where is the lovex3)(the love2x)

    It just ain't the same all ways have changed
    New days are strange is the world the insane?
    If love and peace so strong
    Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
    Nations dropping bombs
    Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones
    With ongoing suffering
    As the youth die young
    So ask yourself is the loving really strong?
    So I can ask myself really what is going wrong
    With this world that we living in
    People keep on giving in
    Makin wrong decisions
    Only visions of them livin and
    Not respecting each other
    Deny thy brother
    The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover
    The truth is kept secret
    Swept under the rug
    If you never know truth
    Then you never know love
    Where's the love y'all?(I don't know)
    Where's the truth y'all?(I don't know)
    Where's the love y'all?

    People killing people dying
    Children hurtin you hear them crying
    Can practice what you preach
    Would you turn the other cheek?
    Father father father help us
    Send some guidance from above
    Cause people got me got me questioning
    Where is the love?(where is the lovex3)(the lovex2)

    I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
    As I'm getting older y'all people get colder
    Most of us only care about money makin
    Selfishness got us followin the wrong direction
    Wrong information always shown by the media
    Negative images is the main criteria
    Infecting their young minds faster than bacteria
    Kids wanna act like what the see in the cinema
    Whatever happened to the values of humanity
    Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
    Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity
    Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity
    That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling under
    That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling down
    It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feeling under
    I gotta keep my faith alive, until love is found

    People killing people dying
    Children hurtin you hear them crying
    Can you practice what you preach
    Would you turn the other cheek?
    Father Father Father help us
    Send some guidance from above
    Cause people got me got me questioning
    Where is the love?(fade)