September 20, 2012

• Update:

  Well what can I say. I still do not have internet at home and I hardly go out to get any so it makes it hard to update this as much as I would want. So many great ideas to write and out the window they go many times. *sigh* 

   

  Still no job but slowly working on it. So I'm working on trying to get  my lesson's going. I go an give sectionals every other week and the off week I teach lessons so for those I do get paid. It's a sacrifice at times but it's worth it. I got one day with a few students and if all goes well I might add another day to get a few more students and expand their mind. My goal that I promised when I joined my Sorority in College "To bring music into the world" is slowly happening by the students I teach. God has been good. Good things come to those who wait and I'm truly happy. I feel relaxed while slowly applying for what ever I can online. It's hard though because on my limit and how much I can get done in the little time. But slow and steady wins the race and I guess I'm the turtle but that's the good part. I will eventually get there and I will be more happy. 

  I have the most supportive boyfriend in the world and I'm blessed. I know times are tough for all but he always manages to come and see me and keep me looking forward rather than falling back and not wanting to get up. And God knows he's heard me really down. I was depressed a few nights here and there... and I hate myself because of it, not because I hate myself but because I bring everybody down. I just want some of those thoughts to go away and stop haunting me here and there. I am happy and I don't want those to be obstacles.

  My son is great he's going to school and I make sure he does all his homework. We joined this reading club that starts in the first week of October. And life is great. Breathing and taking one day at a time makes everything wonderful. 

  Just pray for me, send good vibes, or just think positive thoughts or *cross your fingers* for me. I slowly want to start saving money. I know it's positive even with nothing, something is always something... 

  I've started a payment plan to pay off a credit card debt from so many years... Even with a lil money I get it's hard not to say I can try so I am trying. I want to make everything better. I know  if anyone was in my shoes they'd know the kind of pressure I'm in but I'm relax despite the fact. I want work so they can garnish my wages and I can pay off my school loans... those are my biggest nightmares besides the ones where I'vve recently been having in which I die a terrible death and the sadness of leaving all those I love. 

  Anyways, that was gloomy... yeah. Life is great. Life is great. =D 

  Well that's it for now. I will beback eventually I promise! 

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