December 3, 2011

• Swept off feet, or just plain clumsy

  I never quite knew the term “sweeping off your feet” was real… I thought it was some bullshit the movie industry invented to sell movies… 

  Maybe it’s just meant for clumsy girls who keep falling, for naturally we were swept off our feet. 

  

  Wait, if you’re in the industry, is it to sell movies or for clumsy girls?

  Not many people are searching for it when it happens and much less when you’ve only led a life time of disappointments, a life devoted for this little person in your life. You never thought it’s possible someone can actually want you and everything you can burden them with. 

   

  It’s something we all long for yet many don’t understand how to obtain it. Too scared to be put on the line but a few have the courage to risk it and see what happens. Others give up before they even gave it chance. 

  I tend to be a person who can be HAPPY with a simple “Hello” … a simple “hello” that is dispersed by days at a time if that’s how you started… I don’t care if you tell me “hello” every few days as long as it’s every few days… I like consistency. I’m absent minded but I get clocked worked into routine so easily. I don’t care if you have a life, I don’t care if you spend your time with friends, work, get overtime worked or work 24 hours straight. I’m busy too but a sec I do love to talk, text and chat and most important I love seeing you… well if you want. 

  Skype date anyone? 

  

   

  I learn to adapt. I’ve done it with my life with everybody in it. I am just a tool (at times, yes I admit it because it’s true) to ease the life of others, it’s what I became when I gave up free will. But, my intention was never to just be that, it’s to spread my wings and fly. To be honest: I’ve never felt so alive as I do now. I’ve met many great people who have impacted my  life but I can’t believe this is happening, I’ve met a person who is unlike anyone. Hopeless romantic, corny, loves taking pictures, spending time, talking… you name it and it’s there. I haven’t felt so lucky that someone is not embarrassed to talk about me.  See, I’m a pretty happy person or you’re calling my bluff? ok I get distracted with shiny things, lol…jk I just learned to cope, it’s hard. But, Suddenly I feel great in places that I hadn’t had much of a connection with for a while…  

  I just tear up of happiness because I can’t control or express how I feel, I’m just overwhelmed with happiness. It’s not normal and I feel weird. Not because I’m not a crybaby… I’m emotional roller coaster… I mean *cough* I got something in my eye!!  

  It just suddenly feels too good to be true. 

  As youngin’ we were thought: “If something seems to good to be true, it probably is.” I can’t tell now but this is more than I’ve ever had so if it all went away I could say I  had this all for the first time in my life. 

  I will  say that the moment he held my hand it never felt nicer, I don’t think that had happened in like 9-10 yrs. You don’t understand this never happens. My life is being  stuck with:  errands, my son, my home and the lil work I get. Meeting a person, nearly impossible… I think amongst my friends I was deemed ” Forever Alone”  not that they have ever said but I’m the friend that only shows up alone surrounded by couples … haha yea I’m that friend.

  Anyways, I’m the luckiest girl. I’ve been found and dusted off… who knew something like this happens except to those who is happens to. Life is great and I’m happy. 

   

  I “be trippin’” but only because you swept me off my feet and well I guess a natural born clumsy girl around you! haha 

   

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